Billie Eilish is undoubtedly one of the biggest stars of our age, but even a celebrity of her stature isn’t exempt from mental health and body image issues. Over the past few years, the young starlet has given her fans a sneak peek into what it’s like being in the constant spotlight — and it’s not as glamorous as we had thought.
Eilish says that growing up, she had very low self-esteem because she felt that she wasn’t popular or desired, even by the boys she had dated. In a heartfelt interview with British GQ, Billie revealed the real reason behind her unique fashion sense and how she feels trapped in the persona she has created.
Just recently, the singer released a short film on body shaming, and it’s effects on mental health. In the video titled ‘Not My Responsibility,’ Eilish was seen undressing, with her voiceover in the background clapping back against those who had criticized her appearance and make her feel ashamed for the way she looks.
Over the years, Billie has been praised by millions for her bold decision to go against the beauty norms in Hollywood. Her signature style of baggy hoodies and sneakers is her way of defying the toxic culture of female objectification that has been rampant in the music industry. In doing so, Billie has carved an identity that is so authentic and unique to her own values.
Reflecting on her early teen years, Billie said that there did come a phase in her life when she wanted to be like other girls around her. It’s a well-known fact that the singer and her brother, Finneas, were homeschooled, something that Billie didn’t like.
She wanted to be a normal kid who could sit in classrooms, attend parties, and wear the trendiest clothes. She also envied some of her friends who were wealthier than her, lived in bigger houses, and drove around in nice cars.
Dealing with so much competition was hard on her mental health but she quickly grew out of that phase and found her own identity. Since then, she has never wanted to be like anyone but herself.
This strong sense of self helped Billie carve her own path in the music industry, but now the persona she created is affecting her personal life. She fears that her androgynous style might make people forget that she’s a woman who needs love and affection.
Sometimes she wonders what it’s like to be desired by a man because that’s something she has never felt with any of her ex-boyfriends.